There’s something special about being a mama. The way she is comforted cuddled up against me, does it remind her of my womb? The way she recognizes my voice and laugh, could she hear me when she was inside me? The way she smiles when I kiss her, did she…

Inaction in the face of a growing to-do list is difficult for me. Resting when there are “things to be done” feels guilt-inducing. I like feeling accomplished, checking things off, getting everything done. There are times when, in spite of the to-do list, we need to take a pause. Resting…

After ten long days past my due date, I came in for an induction on Tuesday August 30th. When we got to the hospital, I was barely 1cm dilated and was only having mild and sporadic contractions. Around 1pm I received my first dose of Cytotec with the goal of…

My daughter, Oh how I impatiently await your arrival. For months now, “August 20th” has been on my calendar as the day I may finally meet you. August 20th has now come and gone, and yet I still haven’t gotten to hold you yet or kiss your face. …

Recently, I’ve been thinking about what it means to be barren. Obviously, “barren” means infertile or a woman who cannot have children. In the Bible, there are many stories centered around a barren woman. It clearly is more significant than just infertility. In the society of Bible times, bearing children…

The entire Bible tells the story of God rescuing his people again and again, and we are a part of that story too. I was re-reading Exodus which is a tangible example of God rescuing his people. The story of the burning bush stuck out to me. At the burning…

Be curious instead of condemning with yourself. A therapist on a podcast I listen to said this and man, has it stuck with me. Curiosity allows for growth (this is not the “self love” the world pushes, or acceptance of unhealthy patterns) in a safe space. …

“When the people saw that Moses delayed to come down from the mountain, the people gathered themselves together to Aaron and said to him, “Up, make us gods who shall go before us. …

I like to plan things…to a fault. It’s definitely a strength. I’m always looking ahead, planning for the next step, setting and working towards goals, thinking long term. It’s also a weakness. I struggle to live in the moment. I feel stressed when plans fall through (which happens more than…